The TWW

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The TWW (or Two Week Wait) must be one of the most agonizing times during an infertile’s treatment.  You go through weeks, even months, of injections, doctors appointments, blood draws, ultrasounds, medications, and then the big day comes with a crescendo then quickly dissipates into a world of solitude and wait for an entire two weeks before you have an answer, hopefully the answer you so desperately desire.

The first week of your inevitable two week wait is the easiest.  You know that you have two weeks to wait so one seems to not even worry about the first week aside from possibly taking it a bit easy in the hopes that the embryo will attach itself.  (Or that an embryo was created and will attach itself).  Besides, you have plenty to catch up on around the house and at work because you have spent the preceding weeks worrying about injection times and doctor appointments.

The second week begins to draaaag.  Work moves by like a worm on dry cement and each day feels like it will never end.  Not that you are wishing your life away but you really want to know the outcome of this latest attempt at family building.  After you finally make it through most of the second week you reach the last few days.  During these last few days you begin to question every twinge, ache, and stomach gurgle looking for some sign that you are pregnant or that Aunt Flow is coming.  You are running to the restroom every five minutes to check on Aunt Flow and nearing the point of driving yourself to insanity.  You lay awake at night staring at the ceiling, thinking, imagining, dreaming, wondering “if” but you know that you really wont know for sure until either your menses begins or when the nurse calls you in the afternoon with the results of your BETA test.

The TWW period can be utterly miserable but keeping yourself busy, positive, and away from the internet fertility sites where you can search for early signs of pregnancy symptoms are the easiest ways to make it through.

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About thepcosandinfertilityjourney

For almost two years I have felt so down and alone trying to maintain a normal and happy life since I realized that my husband and I would struggle to create a family. I began to second guess everything in my life, have I done the right things, made the right choices, is it my job, is it where I live, what is it and what can I do to make it better? Then, one night while laying in bed it hit me, and the words just started flowing. I have always loved writing and when I was little always wanted to be an author but never had the inspiration of something to write about; now I do. I am going to share my story, my struggles, my hopes, my fears, my triumphs in the hope that it will help someone else going through the same rollercoaster that I am the way many books, blogs, and chats have helped me cope. I will share with you how I am determined to make sure that one of my life’s dreams are not shot down and the obstacles I go through to get there.

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