I have not posted on my blog since October 5, 2012, wow how time flies. I miss my blog and the community but had troubles putting my energies into it for a number of reasons. Shortly after my last post my pregnancy started getting very complicated and I was focusing all of energies on keeping my babies healthy and growing (not to mention being in and out of the hospital). They ended up being born on December 28, 2012 at 31 weeks + 1 day. We spent 5 weeks in the NICU and the first year in and out of doctor’s appointments and Michael had two heart catheterization surgeries. On top of all this I took a large promotion at work and we bought a new home (our cozy condo quickly become tiny after we brought the twins home!)
I have recently been thinking a lot about getting back on track with things especially since my PCOS has flared back up since the boys were born and I have also recently had a number of people reaching out to me for help with PCOS and infertility related issues. I love helping people which is a large part of the reason I started this blog and Facebook page. So, as I said, I’m back! It’s time to break the silence and get down to the nitty gritty, help myself, and help others. Stay tuned!!!
Here is a 12 month pic of Patrick and Michael, our little blessings 🙂
We had our OB appointment on Wednesday, and I must admit the entire day was one of the best I had in a long time.
First was our appointment, two healthy little boys! The placenta previa is gone (and hopefully stays that way) and my cervix is still looking really good. The only problem is that they are both breach, but that is okay because they will most likely still move a lot. The only downside to that is Baby A (Patrick) is literally standing right on my bladder! The ultrasound tech said, “look, it’s cute, here’s your bladder and here are the feet!” LOL-I’ll show you cute! I had been wondering why I was having to go ALL the time because I was told it would let up in the second trimester but has only gotten worse, now I know why! We are so thankful that both babies appear to be very healthy and are weighing in at 7 oz each. Shockingly enough my right ovary is still 7cm as well. I can’t believe it hasn’t gone down yet but I can’t really tell anymore. There’s so much going on in there making me uncomfortable an ovary a few centimeters too big is nothing!
I must admit I was a bit disappointed for a minute that there is no little princess in there, especially since there was so much pressure from my husband’s side because the 4 current grandchildren are all boys and we are the last hope. (I guess we will just have to use some of those frozen embryos :P) But I can not be more happier than to have two healthy babies. We tried so hard and for so long to have a baby at all that these precious little cupcakes could not mean more, I love them so much already. It truly is amazing how I love someone I have never even met before. I’m already worrying about when they start driving! lol
After our appointment we went a bought an awesome Nikon camera/video camera in one. We had been researching them and it is also an early birthday present to me. 🙂 We are all set to take beautiful pictures and video of our two munchkins! Then we went to Babies R Us to start our first registry. How exciting! It was so much fun to watch how excited my husband was to help pick out everything (and even picked a few things he liked i.e. bib that says “if you think I’m cute you should see my dad”-hehe). Since Wednesday I have just been on a shopping spree; not too crazy but it’s hard not to. When I think of my baby boys it makes me just so happy and shopping for them while thinking of them makes me soooo happy. They are already the joy of my life.
Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! I had a doctor’s appointment on Friday and after describing some symptoms to my doctor including severe headaches still (he was waiting to see if they would clear up after 16 weeks), trouble breathing at times, and black flashed in my eyes when I’m stressed, he said I need to watch my blood pressure. He said my blood pressure that day was borderline so he wanted me to get a cuff and measure it on my own at home. I am supposed to let him know right away if I get over 140 or 90. If it starts getting high then he wants to talk about taking me off work. I guess we will see. It was pretty good all weekend and got a little higher today but nothing crazy. I am trying to do my best to stay calm and handle things as best I can. It is so hard because not only is work so stressful right now I am crazy hormonal on top of it! I can’t win! lol
Other than developing Preelampsia everything else is going really well. They heard both heart beats; 146 and 155! Very strong 🙂 We go for our anatomy ultrasound on Wednesday, are sooooo excited! I can not wait to find out exactly what we are having so I can really start shopping and planning. Our goal is to get the nursery done by December 1 since my husband gets so busy in December (as do I with all the holiday happenings and to-dos), plus it will get harder and harder for me to do much. So after Wednesday, game on! I will be sure to let you all know what the results are! Until then, baby dust to all! xoxo
So, I feel so incredibly guilty for not posting or checking in for so long. Work kicked in to full swing for the school year and I have been working an incredible amount of hours (way more than I probably should be) and by the time I get home I am so burned out I have no energy. Then on the weekends I waver between no energy and trying to get done what I haven’t throughout the week. I miss the outlet that my blog provides me and just can’t take it anymore! I decided that I just need to buck up and get back on the horse!
The babies are doing really well so far. 17 Weeks and 1 Day and counting. I can’t believe the way time is going by. We still have a long way to go but as more time goes the better I feel about everything. We are working on the office-to-nursery transformation and are about ready to paint. We have just about everything moved out and packed up, closet doors installed, and it’s looking good. We also picked up the cribs a couple of weeks ago on a good sale! They are really pretty and I can’t wait to put them up after the painting is done. I have slowly been picking things up, a few outfits, some decorations and toys, and things we need like mattress pads. I always go shopping every two weeks after my doctor’s appointment to celebrate another milestone. It’s a little treat to myself. 🙂
Unfortunately, I have been incredibly stressed out lately. Work has been just awful and cry daily, sometimes even more than once. This is not me (at least not at or about work that is). I am always tough and can handle anything and get through anything (heck, I made it through infertility so far, right!? We are strong women!). I sometimes even cry in the morning when I am getting ready for work just thinking about everything I have to do and deal with. My gums have even started just randomly bleeding a few times and I believe it is stress related along with the whole swollen gums when pregnant thing. I have no choice but to talk to my doctor about everything tomorrow at my bi-weekly appointment so I will see what he says. I hope he doesn’t want me off of work because then I will feel like a failure but at the same time if anything goes wrong with my pregnancy or my babies I will feel like a bigger failure. It is so difficult. My husband actually wants me off of work very badly. He thinks this is too much for me and hates seeing me in such distress. This is really surprising coming from him because he is normally the one to keep me going when I need it and Mr. “you’ll get through it, tough it out”. I know that my blood pressure has been elevated a lot. My hands and feet are swollen and sometimes my eyes throb and have black flashing spots when I’m stressed. I guess we will see what the doctor says, I know that I have to do whatever it takes for my babies. We have come such a long way to get here I don’t want to mess it up.
Well, I think that’s it for tonight. Boy do I feel better getting on here again! I promise not to be a stranger again! I hope everyone is doing well in his or her journey through infertility, have a wonderful evening! xoxo
Things just seem to be moving along and happening quickly these days. I went to the doctor on Monday for my bi-weekly check-up and things are going along just fine. I still lost weight but right now it’s ok. I’m trying to eat as much as I can and making sure that what I do eat is varied nutritionally. I feel like all I do is eat! I was also able to hear one of the precious heart beats via doppler! It was one of the most amazing moments in my life that brought me to tears. What a beautiful sound. Our next appointment and ultrasound is this coming Friday.
I also purchased what I am lovingly referring to as my “mommy mobile” this week. I have always driven small, economical cars. Mostly because they are fun and good on gas since I drive a lot but after a detailed assessment of my current compact 4-door we decided there was no way that two infant seats and a double stroller were going to fit with anything else. So essentially I would be SOL after a big trip to the mall or grocery shopping! We decided to get something now before I put more miles on my car and while I’m still able to get around well. (That’s kind of the name of the game these days, let’s get it done before I’m too big or the chance of my going on bed rest increases). I really enjoy the new mommy mobile though. It is a little different sitting up high and driving something bigger but so far I like it. I made sure I got everything I wanted, all the gadgets and gizmos and add-ons so it’s really nice.
Thankfully I am starting to feel better. I think my ovaries are finally going down, just in time for my belly to start getting bigger! I can feel the stretching and pulling quite often and it seems like I can just sit and watch my tummy get bigger! I am getting more energy which is awesome. I definitely still get tired easily and have to take it easy but at least I can be productive during the day. I even started cleaning out and packing up the office/guest bedroom that will become the nursery. We want to get it painted in a few weeks or so so I have a bit of work there. I figure if I do a little every few days I will have it done in no time. I think we are going to have it professionally painted since I am the resident painter and there is no way I am letting my husband do it because it will look awful! I don’t want to be getting up on a ladder and dangling around taking a chance of falling.
Nausea is weaning but I still have it here and there. Unfortunately I am developing more headaches/migraines. I spoke with my doctor about it and he said it is an unfortunate thing that happens with some women but it is nothing to be concerned about. I can take Tylenol as needed and hopefully it will help. I try not to take it too much and just tough it out but when it’s too much to handle I do take it, sometimes it helps; sometimes it doesn’t.
I think that covers it for now! I hope all is going well for everyone else in baby making and/or PCOS world! xoxo
We had our first OB ultrasound on Saturday and everything is going good! It was so crazy; I was talking to the ultrasound tech and she had been through infertility as well and had twins from IVF and also had severe OHSS, we had a lot in common! It’s always neat talking with people who have been through, or are going through, the same or similar experiences. You are always able to learn so many things and end up creating a type of friendship or camaraderie out of it. One of the reasons I am so very open about our infertility issues. 🙂 Time is just ticking away and I hope and pray every second of every day that things continue to go well.
The next two months are going to be so crazy for me with work. This is one of the busiest opening seasons we have ever had and there is so much work to be done. It is going to take all I have to get through it in one piece, especially since I currently have the energy of a newborn (possibly less). I just have to be conscious to get my rest in whenever I can. Well, that’s all for now! I had a looong meeting all day today and am very tired even though I am going to sit here and do some more work (thankfully I have a laptop and can sit in my chair with my feet up). I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and has a beautiful week!
So I’ve been busy busy since Saturday as my mom and brother were in town from South Carolina and it was so much fun and wonderful to see them! Monday I had my first OB appointment that my mom went to with me which was really nice. They checked my urine, drew a lot of blood, and did a pap. I really like this doctor. I hadn’t seen him before though I have been going to this practice for a number of years and he has only been there for a couple of years. He went through everything and answered any questions I had very thoroughly and explained how my care would be handled throughout my pregnancy. I have a number of things that need to be monitored so I will actually be going to the OB every two weeks and then gradually will increase to every week closer to the third trimester. He also said I will be getting a lot of ultrasounds too, every 2-4 weeks. They have to keep an eye on not only the babies but also my ovaries and my cervix. Due to the HPV I had a number of years ago (before people really knew what it was and there was a vaccine) that turned into pre-cancer I had to have a LEEP performed on my cervix which has compromised it. Especially due to a twin pregnancy my cervical length has to be measured to watch for any shortening which would mean they will have to sew it closed and I will most likely be put on bed rest. Then, due to my PCOS I am also at a higher risk of gestational diabetes. So, all three of us will be closely monitored throughout this pregnancy and we must be very careful.
Aside from my appointment my mom and I went shopping for a ton of new maternity clothes! I can no longer wear normal clothes at all. Not only are my ovaries still huge but I can tell that I’m starting to “pop”!
Work is starting to get really busy as we gear up for the new school year with all of the changes and new regulations. It’s going to be a push to get through the next month or two, hopefully as I move into the second trimester this exhaustion will start to dissipate.
Our next ultrasound will be on Saturday and I am so excited and nervous. I think I will always be nervous before an ultrasound. Until I have confirmation of two little heartbeats I wont rest. 🙂 Hope everyone has a fantastic rest of the week and weekend! xoxo